unraveling..and raveling again

I have to admit that it's this time of year that I always feel a little suicidal. No, you don't need to call someone for me and I am not actually going to commit the act, it's just that this time of year that I think too damn much and I miss people, and I find that I am just too easily depressed by my own thoughts this time of the year.
I have a good family who loves and cares for me, a little ds little brother who adores me and who I wouldn't want to hurt for the world. This is most of the reason I wouldn't actually kill myself, another being that I think it is cowardly and stupid. But I have had friends who did, who couldn't bear their own pain or shame or disillusionment, and I miss them in my own way all the time.
This is mostly a test post so I won't go on forever, I will just say that the best advice I was given on the subject is to Just Breathe.